Come Along With Me As I Write My Novels
(And a lot of other new writing experiences too)
As you may have seen across my social media channels (gosh that sounds pretentious… but, yeah...), I launched a webpage for The Cube’s Little Free Library Challenge in February. The goal is to get a copy of The Cube in as many Little Free Libraries, across as many cities as possible - and in all 50 states!
As of today:
Current state count: 12
Current cities count: 17
Current Little Free Library count: 39
As you venture out this spring on spring break vacations, weekend getaways, or just a regular old Wednesday, please consider picking up a copy of The Cube and placing it in a Little Free Library by you.
If you live in a state we’ve already covered, still do it! States are big! Cities are big! I have put a ton in just Chicago alone. Don’t let it stop you. The more the better!
If you know people in other cities or states that might have fun, please encourage them to participate!
If you aren’t in the US and still want to play, send me photos from abroad and I will ABSOLUTELY add them to my webpage.
Why should you do this? WELL…
Obviously this gives me something to promote, and hopefully will garner a few sales, but that’s really not my main objective. This Little Free Library project has brought SO MUCH JOY!
It’s SO MUCH FUN to see the creativity of the people that put the libraries up, all the design styles, the reasons why they went up, and book genre choices. It’s crazy to know I will probably never know who picks up my book and how many other people might get it if it gets placed into the same (or a different) LFL again. It’s so lovely and whimsical and I hope you will pick up on that vibe too.
I love the Little Free Library organization and they have been really supportive and encouraging of this project. When I contacted them to tell them about it, they were all for it. Very nice people. To learn more about them, please visit their website and consider a donation!
With unending appreciation,
PS… just a quick note… A signed copy of The Cube with an author meet-and-greet is up for auction for the Waters Elementary School’s annual Big Night fundraiser. I’m happy to help raise money for this great school. It’s item #1028. You can find it under “Browse Items” or under the category “Entertainment.” The auction is live until Friday, March 8 so place your bid today!
Happy Holidays everyone!
I debated about whether or not to do a ‘buy my book this holiday season’ post. On the one hand, seems kind of mandatory for an indie author. On the other hand, gross, right? But, I have to admit, I still get major warm fuzzies when people buy the book, read the book, or post about it - so - you gotta do what you gotta do! Let me say THANK YOU to everyone who has read The Cube this year, talked about it, posted about it, etc. - I’m so grateful. Seriously, you have no idea.
For those of you who haven’t bought the book yet - or would like to stock up for holiday gifts - here’s a buying guide and info on my holiday raffle!
I’m honored that the following indie bookstores now carry The Cube. Please support these stores and shop local if you can:
If you don’t see your favorite bookstore on this list, any bookstore should be able to order the book on request.
You can also purchase the book online in paperback or eBook format at:
For your e-Reader, The Cube should be available on all major e-Reader platforms.
DIRECT FROM AUTHOR - SPECIAL PRICES!
If you would like to buy directly from me, let me know. I can also sign and/or dedicate the books if that is preferred. As for price, here is my holiday special:
Reply to this email and/or post if you are interested and we can arrange payment and book distribution. If you are not local, we can discuss shipping options. Shipping rates may apply.
If you buy a book and place it in a Little Free Library and post about it using the hashtags #TheCubeNovel and #LittleFreeLibrary, you will be entered in a raffle drawing for the prize of a $25 Amazon Gift Card. Every post is one entry. Please be sure to tell people where the Little Free Library is located. Also, I want to give a little more time for this one, so I will choose the winner on February 1, 2019. Yay for Little Free Libraries!
Thank you again for all your support. Happy shopping!
PS… for the raffle posts… a few quick tips:
It’s been awhile since I’ve posted. Over a month in fact. I can’t believe it’s taken me that long to write another update. It’s not for lack of things going on. I’ve been having the most fun with promoting The Cube through Little Free Library giveaways. I’ve made it to four states outside of Illinois since September (Iowa, Indiana, Kentucky, Wisconsin). Stay tuned to find out what state will be next! If you have any suggestions (or decide to buy a copy of the The Cube and put it in a Little Library by you) let me know!
The biggest news by far has been my book option - aka someone wants to make my book into a movie! EEK! The paperwork was signed and the announcement was made on October 12. YAY! There’s still a long way to go for the filmmaker, so we don’t know what will happen, but I’m really excited for the journey. And, I learned a lot through the process so I wanted to share that will all of you.
So first, what is a book option? Basically, if someone options your book it means that you are granting them the rights to try and make the book into something else - e.g. a TV show or a movie. Could even be a song. The person that optioned my book, Mitch Yapko, now has the permission to go to investors and movie management and say, “I have the rights to this book. Help me make a movie.” Very exciting.
I’m going to paraphrase the next part, so don’t take this as any kind of legal advice, but from what I gathered through the process, there are two kinds of options. One is a basic option, which can be granted to more than one person. So that’s saying to one or more person, sure, you can try and get this made into a movie but if someone else gets there first, I may go with them. The other is a purchase option, in which the exclusive rights are granted to one person. The officially terminology might be slightly different but that’s the gist. The purchase option is what Mitch and I went with. So, exclusive rights are yours Mitch! Onward my friend!
A few things…
So I imagine, the burning question is, “How DID you get your book optioned?” Well, like in all things publishing, there are million ways these things happen. For me, it truly was through social media. I posted a ton when my book came out. My college friend, the aforementioned Mitch, saw the post and bought the book. He read it, loved it, and sent me a message asking if we could connect. We talked, and I could tell that he really understood and appreciated the book, and he asked me if he could option it. I said yes and then all we had to do was make it official. If I hadn’t been aggressively posting on Facebook, he may never have seen it. So, the moral of the story there is - don’t be shy folks, you never know what will happen.
The next step was actually pulling the agreement together. That’s what ended up taking more time. I don’t have an agent and didn’t have a lawyer. Mitch also didn’t have representation for this type of agreement. So, we had to tag team it. We did a lot of online research on what goes into agreements like this. I asked some of my friends that are in the creative industry about book options and he did the same. Then, he started looking for a manager and I started to look for a lawyer, because, in my experience, finding a lawyer is way less work than getting an agent to sign you.
Still, even if finding a lawyer is easier, you have to find the right one. I met with several people. All were nice. All were knowledgeable, but it wasn’t until I talked to Odell (Odell Mitchell III of Thirdinline Legal) that I knew I’d found my person. From the first phone call we just had a great vibe and I thought - this is the person I want representing me. At the end of the day, if you are going to put your work in the hands of someone else, you have to find someone that meshes with your style. So, the first thing I actually signed was an agreement of representation with Odell. Odell made that part very easy.
How did I find Odell? Through my network. I asked a bunch of my friends that have larger social networks if they know of any entertainment lawyers. A friend of mine emailed her friend. Her friend suggested Odell. The way the world goes round. My best advice here is to ask your network. If your friends like someone, chances are you will too. (PS… this is how I found all the people I met with actually. All were referrals from friends.)
Once I had Odell, we still needed to get the paperwork in order. In these cases, it is up to the book optioner (aka Mitch) to present the paperwork to the author. They want the option, they do the work. Because the internet has everything, we were able to find a sample agreement which Mitch took the time to review, fill in, and adapt, and then he sent that to me. I sent that to Odell. Odell revised it and counseled me why he made the changes. Mitch and I agreed on all the points. We both signed and voila! The option was complete!
I’d say the whole thing took a couple of months.
So, now what? Well, now Mitch has the hard part. He is writing the screenplay and is going to be pursuing all avenues to make the movie. I have the easy part. I sit back and am at the ready if he has any questions along the way. We’ve already had one really fun screenplay conversation. He asked me a lot of questions about the world in the book. I got to tell him about things I’d loved to see be in a movie (still up to him if he puts them in though) and he told me about some things he’s envisioning. I’m sure it will be the first of many such talks, which leads me to think this whole thing will be quite fun. One of his questions intrigued me; he asked me if there are still homeless people in the world I created in The Cube (my short answer was yes). The question so intrigued me that I wrote a few pages on it from the point of view of a completely new character named Kaitlyn who works at a homeless shelter. I typed that up and sent it off to Mitch. I’ll be honest, part of me hopes that keeps happening because it was a lot of fun.
A lot of people ask me if I am worried about giving up my book to someone else. I can honestly say, not at all. I wrote my book. Mitch will make his movie. They are different creative endeavors. Maybe it’s easier because I’m working with someone I care for and trust, but even if that wasn’t the case, I think I’d feel about the same. I expect the movie will have a lot of differences, and I actually can’t wait to see them. I’m honestly sincerely and genuinely flattered that he asked. It’s one thing for me to love my book. It’s mind-blowing to find out someone else does too. I am SO excited for Mitch. I can’t even express it. I’m already proud of him.
So, that was my book option experience. I hope that it is a little helpful for those out there who might be going through the same thing, or at least interesting for folks who just want to know a little bit more about how these things work. I’m sure there are tons of posts out there about more complicated ways these things happen - authors who are soliciting options or who are in an option bidding war or who have agents that shop their book around for optioning - but my experience was very grassroots, which to be quite frank, goes along perfectly well with my experience with the The Cube overall.
I promise to keep you all posted as I find out more about the movie. For now, if you want to learn more about Mitch, Odell, or any of the people I work with on my writing journey, check out my collaborators page. I’m so lucky to be surrounded by such amazing people.
As ever, I remain committed to documenting my writing journey with you, and it’s been quite the week. I’m at the tail end of an entire week off of work. I took the week to focus on editing my channillo.com series Amache’s America into novel format. It’s been a lot of “how do I do this?” followed by, “oh my goodness, this is really working!” followed by, “I should start watching Friday Night Lights (finally) and get addicted so that I have something to distract me from the utter disaster that is writing a book.” Ultimately though, I have made some very good progress and I’m really pleased with how far this week has taken me.
So, what does it mean to change my channillo.com series to a novel? Well, as many of you know, channillo.com is a serial fiction website. Writers on the platform post small segments of work on a daily, weekly, monthly basis (or whatever frequency suits them). The work varies from poems to journal entries to short stories, to my style -- writing a chapter a week of a longer format piece.
The style of writing a chapter a week is very different than writing a contiguous story. A chapter a week allows for much more jumping around, from character to character to whole leaps in plot points. It also requires for there to be a good ‘hook’ at the end of each chapter to keep people coming back. This ‘hook’ is much more dramatic than the hook from chapter to chapter in a novel.
The platform itself promotes shorter chapters as well. If my chapter goes too long, it’s cut into segments, which isn’t ideal from a reader experience, so I have to keep things short. This doesn’t allow for paragraphs to always breathe the way I’d like them too.
Most importantly, a chapter a week over 18 months (which is how long I took to write Amache’s America until I thought the story had been told) leads to some serious story scope change, tone change, and some fuzzy consistency issues, some of which are small and some of which are glaring when you stop to read it from start to finish.
So, if I want to get it published in novel format, I need to clean it up. I need it to read smoothly, and have a coherent plot structure, and make the tone stays the same throughout. And, at about 50,000 words all told on the website, I need to add about 30,000 words to it to get it to a good novel length.
So, this week I’ve been diving in. Reading and re-reading it. Figuring out where the story needs to grow. Adding in new characters to round out the story arcs. Figuring out what can stay and what needs to get cut. Adding in some more exposition. Taking out serialized fiction tactics. Figuring out who my characters are in this new format. And trying to think of a new title for the novel version, because it really is a new thing. Titles are tricky and I want to get the new title right. It’s like taking a giant puzzle, shaking it like a etch-a-sketch, and then putting it back together again. It will resemble what came before it, but it won’t be the same.
Truth be told, I had a fantasy that by the end of the week I’d be done. That somehow if I sat down and focused for a week straight I’d have an entire series edited, reformatted, and 30,000 words added. I love that I thought this. I love that I really went for it. But, seeing as it’s Friday morning and I’ve got quite a lot left I want to do, I know that’s not quite realistic. BUT. BUT. I’m on the road now. I know specifically what I have to do, which is not something I could say when I started. So, after this week I think I’ll be just fine going back to evenings and weekends and early mornings.
And, because there’s no rest for the wicked, this isn’t the only project I’ve been working on this week. I launched my new channillo.com series, The IT Girl on Tuesday (new chapter every Tuesday!) and I’ve finally found someone to help me market The Cube a little more aggressively, so I’ve been pulling together materials for that and I’m excited to keep promoting that book too.
All in all, this week has given me a glimpse of what my life would be like if I was a full-time, work-from-home writer. Probably more so than when I took time off to work on The Cube. Because now I have multiple projects in various stages and I am not completely debilitated by the “what ifs” of it all. Honestly, this week writing has really seemed like a job and not the same passion project, leap of faith, it did back in 2016 when The Cube was still a pipe dream. Now, I know what I have to do and I’m doing it. (If only writers could get paid for being writers. That’s the next pipe dream to tackle).
As for the job of being a full-time writer -- I think I’d be good at it. But, this week has also reminded me about how lonely writing can be. About what it feels like to mill around my apartment when my brain just can’t write anymore. And that makes me miss my job. A lot.
Can I just stop to express how grateful I am that I was able to take this week off of work to write? Right now, it seems like I have the best of both worlds. I have a job that I really like, that challenges me, and that keeps me stable, and the flexibility to continue to pursue my writing and have this second job of being an author. I’m really lucky. In more ways I can ever express.
So, stay tuned for the novel format of Amache’s America - title TBD. Continue to support The Cube by posting on social media with the hashtag #TheCubeNovel and, of course, buying it. And, check out my new series, The IT Girl on channillo.com.
Thanks for following along on this journey. I appreciate you!
I hope you all have been having a great summer. It’s hard to believe we are in the middle of August already! This summer has been full of book-related events, including a great meet-and-greet at The Book Bin in Northbrook in June and a book reading as a part of Local Author’s Night at the Book Cellar in July.
I also had fun selling books at Printers Row Lit Fest and have loved all the posts from around the US and the globe of The Cube coming along with you on summer vacations and outings. Keep the photos coming!
If you don't believe that social media posts work, here’s some proof. I spotted this review on Amazon the other day and it’s all thanks to you! Even if you’ve posted already, posting again can and will make a difference. So please keep it up, and thank you!
I was also able to make my first donation to The Night Ministry this summer too. For every review I receive on Amazon and/or Goodreads, $1 goes to them. Every time I hit 20 reviews, I send them a check. I was thrilled to be able to contribute to their cause last month, so please keep the reviews coming too.
For my final big event of the summer, I will be on the radio this Sunday, August 19. From 1-2pm I will be on the show “Playtime with Bill Turck & Kerri Kendall” - Chicago’s only radio show dedicated solely to the arts. I met Bill at The Book Cellar event and I can’t wait to chat with him and Kerri more about The Cube and the arts in general. You can learn more about their radio show on their website and you should be able to listen live on the 1590 WCGO website if you don’t get that station where you live. It will be my first time on the radio so wish me luck!
There are other exciting book-related projects in the works, both on The Cube and on other books I’m working on, so please stay tuned. Thank you all for helping me spread the word. In the name of ruthless self-promotion, here are some closing reminders…
I think that’s all for now. I can’t believe it’s been less than five months since The Cube was released. It’s been a roller coaster, and I’m glad each of you is along for the ride.
It’s time to get real about my experience selling my book as an indie author. The long and short of it is that I hate it. Hate is a strong word. I dislike it. Greatly. Like, a lot. On second thought, I stand by my original statement. I hate it.
Why do I hate it?
Well, a lot of it is personal. I don’t like asking people for things. And that’s all this is. Asking people to buy the book. Asking people to review the book. Asking bookstores to carry the book. Asking book clubs to host the book. Asking people to tell their friends about the book. Everything is based on asking people.
I wish there were ways to circumvent the ask. I’ve tired a few. But, as far as I can tell, they are all expensive or very time consuming.
For example, I paid for a press release. The vendor used sent out word of my book to over 2,000 places. At first the cost seemed crazy, but then I thought about all the time and effort I’d have to put into contacting each place myself and thought it was a frickin’ steal. Want the major newspapers, book review outlets, magazines, even local TV stations to know about your book but not have to spend hours and hours looking up submission guidelines for each one? Press release!
But the cost-benefit from it wasn’t the engagement I got afterwards (which as far as I can tell has been minimal). The cost-benefit analysis was checking all 2,000+ of those places off of my mental to-do list.
Another example of expenses: submitting for “Book of the Year” awards. Some are as little as $15, but how many $15 submissions can you do before it becomes expensive?
What about ads? I decided to pay for one - the New York Review of Books. I picked The Summer Issue which will publish in August and be out for six weeks. But even that - it’s one little ad. What do I expect from it? I have NO idea. Nothing?
And then, of course, there’s posting. But figuring out 800 different ways of saying the same thing (aka -- buy my book) is really time consuming and I don’t really know what works and what doesn’t.
That’s the other thing very personal thing I hate about selling the book. I constantly feel like I don’t know what I’m doing. I’ve had a couple people graciously take time out of their lives and work to send me their ideas for marketing and how I could promote my book. Some of the ideas I have implemented. Some (thankfully) I was already doing. The rest? WHO HAS TIME? OR HOW DO YOU START?
I keep telling people I feel like the goal post keeps moving. Write the book. Edit the book. Get the book published. Launch the book. Sell the book. Make the book go viral. These are all completely different disciplines that have very different personalities behind them. Whatever introverted part of me retreats into literature and storytelling is the exact opposite part of me that is at a book fair yelling at people passing by to “please stop by and buy my book! Yes, me, the girl standing here with one book next to the guy that has seven or eight different books with multiple publishers. Buy this one!”
Remember my raging impostor syndrome?
The gist of it is, no one knows how to make anything go viral. There are so many plans out there. But, unless you have an endless supplementary income to spend on promoting yourself OR you have all the time in the world to hoof it to indie bookstores or craft the perfect emails/pitches/approaches, you really are reliant on the grace and generosity of other people.
Which gets me back to the beginning: I hate asking people for things.
And a huge part of me wants to stop.
Because it’s been a not-insubstantial source of stress.
But then I think, in reality, it’s only been a few months.
And I’ve already accomplished a lot.
So, maybe instead of stopping, I just need to scale it back? But, if I scale it back, I can almost guarantee that my book sales will completely stop. And isn’t that just basically choosing to stop anyway?
Now you’re really getting a taste for how my brain works.
At the end of the day, I need to retreat to my comfort zone: Gratitude
For every person that has already bought the book - THANK YOU
For every person that has read the book - THANK YOU
For every person that has reviewed the book on Amazon or Goodreads - THANK YOU
For every person that has posted a photo on social media - THANK YOU
For every person that has told someone else about the book - THANK YOU
For every person that has come to a book event - THANK YOU
If I don’t sell a single additional book, it’ll all be worth it for 1. Getting to hold my book in my hand after all these years and 2. For all of the people that have been so kind to date. You have no idea how much your support has meant to me. Truly. From the bottom of my heart. You are THE. BEST.
I don’t know how to make my book or word of my book branch out beyond my circle of very amazing friends and family. But at the end of the day, maybe I don’t have to. Maybe that’s not the point. Maybe instead of this being a blog post about how much I hate selling books, it’s actually a blog post about how I need to get back to what I love - which is writing them.
To that end, I end this post with this announcement: My channillo.com series Amache’s America will be completed on July 24. I’ve already taken all the content, printed it out, and am reading it again from start to finish. I’m taking notes on what I need to change, add, edit, etc. I’ll need to add at least 30,000 words to get it to novel length. I’m working with the same editor that I had for The Cube to convert it from online vignettes to a real story. So, book #2 is on its way. YAY! I will also be starting a new series on channillo.com. More on that soon.
So, I guess the moral of the story is -- when confronted with something that you hate, go back to remembering what you love. I still hate selling books. But I love writing them. And I love people that love books too.
Thank you for continuing to follow along with me on my journey. As always, stay tuned!
Thank you all for your support of The Cube. It’s been a crazy two months and we are just getting started. I have several events coming up that I’m hoping you can attend and help spread the word. I can’t do this without your help - so thank you!
Printers Row Lit Fest
Saturday, June 9, 2018
3:00 pm - 6:00 pm
Chicago Writers Association Tent - Tent O
I will be selling The Cube at Printers Row this year. Come by to say hi and to check out all the other amazing CWA authors. For any Channillo friends, David Berner will also be there so it will be twice the fun!
Local Author Night and Book Signing
Thursday, June 28, 2018
The Book Bin Northbrook
1151 Church St Northbrook, IL 60062
7:00 pm - 8:30 pm
I will be hosting a local author night at The Book Bin in my hometown of Northbrook. I will do a short reading and then open it up for Q&A. Books will be available for purchase onsite for signing. There will also be wine and snacks!
Here’s a link to the evite. If you can make it, please let me know so that we can make sure we have enough wine - a key component to the evening :)
Local Author Night
Wednesday, July 18, 2018
The Book Cellar
4736-38 N Lincoln Ave Chicago, IL 60625
I will be one of the featured Local Authors at the monthly Local Author Night at the Book Cellar in Lincoln Square. Come by to meet some great authors. Books will be available for purchase and signing. No RSVP required.
I hope to see you at one of these events. And please, help spread the word. The more the merrier. Use the hashtag #TheCubeNovel or tag me.
In Other News...
Thank you all again for your ongoing support. Summer is such a fun time to dive into reading. I hope The Cube will be on your summer reading list!
If you take a photo of yourself reading The Cube at a great summer location - the beach, camping, the pool, etc, please tag it so I can see it. You know I love photos!
Hello my fellow Cubers!
I am really fortunate to have a lot of people in my life that are smarter than me. One of my lovely friends gave me the suggestion to post Book Club questions so that people who are either hosting book clubs, a part of book clubs, or may be creating book clubs for the first time, can have a jumping off point for their conversations about The Cube. Love it.
The problem is, all the questions I can think of on my own are totally self-serving! My questions are like “what did you think of this plot point?” or “did you think XYZ was too obvious?” or “did you like it when…?” I decided this was not something I, as the writer, should do. So, I asked my readers! Below are some questions that people who have finished reading The Cube have come up with for book club conversations. I hope that they spur great conversation and enjoyment.
Spoiler Alert Warning! If you haven’t read the book yet, these questions may give some plot points away.
Book Club Questions about The Cube: by Readers for Readers
About the Characters:
Do you think someone could move from being long-time friends to romantically involved like Will and Molly? What do you think were some unique relationship challenges they faced that other relationships might not?
Could you relate to Molly’s need to crack the code? Why do you think she became so focused on figuring out what the symbols represented?
Do you think Will should have gone with Molly on their flight to the northeast after they told the detective they would stay put? Why do you think Molly felt that was a necessary risk?
What do you think Will looks like?
About the Game:
Would you want to play The Cube? Would you pay $100?
Which level of the Cube sounded like the most fun to play?
About Wallace Enterprises:
Would you have taken the job offer to work at Wallace Enterprises? Why/why not?
Are you convinced Wallace Enterprises is benevolent? What do you think makes a corporation benevolent or not?
About the Future:
The book presents the technological capabilities of life as both luxurious and potentially threatening. Would you want to have the every-day technologies of the book in your life?
As new technologies develop, how do you think society should determine where the proper line between security and freedom/privacy should be? Who should be in charge of making these decisions? (government, corporations, every individual?)
Is it necessary to give up some freedoms to have greater security?
How realistic is the future created in The Cube? Can you imagine the technologies present in Will’s home for example?
Do you think the existence of The Cube would dramatically change politics in America? Do you think it would lead to greater unity and cooperation or could it lead to greater polarization?
About Corporate Social Responsibility:
Will and Molly seemed to revisit an argument on whether or not corporations can do good. Do you believe there is a place in the economy for social enterprise?
Did The Cube change your opinion on how a corporation might take social responsibility?
If you have any other questions you’d think should be added to this list, please let me know and I’ll update the post.
And, as always, if you’re local and would like me to come to your book club, or if you’re not so local and want me to FaceTime or Skype in, please reach out! Or, if your book club selects The Cube but doesn’t opt for an author drop-by, please post a pic to Instagram or Twitter with the hashtag #TheCubeNovel.
Thank you to all the readers of The Cube!
You might also like…
Windy City Reviews review of The Cube
MaryLou Driedger’s review of The Cube
Buy The Cube on Amazon or drop in and purchase it at The Book Cellar
It’s been just over one month since my book launched. One month since this passion project of mine was out there for the world to see. One month since I had to learn even more new skills, like how to market a book (still learning by the way, yikes).
In the past month my emotions have run the gamut. I’ve been incredibly proud of myself, grateful for my family and friends. I’ve been insecure about asking people to buy the book or post reviews. Mortified when I stopped to think about the fact that someone one day will read the book and absolutely hate it. Suspicious that when people tell me they like the book it’s just lip service. Thrilled when people tell me they like that book and that something I wrote brought enjoyment to someone else’s day.
But really, the best way I can describe the last month is to say that it has been a daily struggle with impostor syndrome, which our friend Wikipedia defines as such:
“Impostor syndrome (also known as impostor phenomenon, fraud syndrome or the impostor experience) is a psychological pattern in which people doubt their accomplishments and have a persistent, often internalized fear of being exposed as a "fraud". The term was coined in 1978 by clinical psychologists Pauline R. Clance and Suzanne A. Imes. Despite external evidence of their competence, those exhibiting the syndrome remain convinced that they are frauds and do not deserve the success they have achieved. Proof of success is dismissed as luck, timing, or as a result of deceiving others into thinking they are more intelligent and competent than they believe themselves to be. While early research focused on the prevalence among high-achieving women, impostor syndrome has been found to affect both men and women, in roughly equal numbers.”
Talk about a window into my soul!
One of my friends challenged me to write lists of all the good things that have happened since I published the book and all of the accomplishments that I’ve had since I published the book and two dwell on those things. At first it was hard for me to even get the lists started, but once I did things just kept flowing, and I have to say they have really helped. There’s something to seeing how long the lists can get, especially when focused on gratitude. I have so many things to be grateful for, I don’t think any number of lists could ever encapsulate them all.
One source of gratitude that stands out was the book launch party that my friend Sara organized for me. It was well attended and full of warmth and good spirit. Sara gave a lovely toast, and I even said a few words (which I don’t really remember) and I had a lot of fun seeing people from all walks of my life and signing book after book. I still can’t believe how many people came out for it. ABUNDANCE OF GRATITUDE.
After the party, I actually was so overwhelmed it felt like my whole life was buzzing. I got home and just kind of melted into the couch. The next day at work I didn’t feel 100% and left early. By the time I got home I had a raging fever and had to take the following day off of work. For 24 hours I barely moved. It was like the momentum of the past month, the progression of the last seven years, everything that came into bringing The Cube into the world had culminated at that party and my body was just like - “yep, I’m done!”
The good news is that it only took me a day to rest and release and I’ve been slowly getting back into planning next steps. The bad news is… well, there is no bad news. If that’s what my body had to go through to process this moment in my life, then c’est la vie.
Since I have been so diligent about documenting this journey, I just felt like it was important for people to know about this part of it. The after the part. The part where you can’t believe it happened, you can’t believe there’s still so much to do, the part where you get paralyzed by trying to define what your goal actual is (Do I want to sell 1,000 books? Speak at 100 events? Get 100 reviews? Get into 100 book stores?) until you realize that at some point you just have to STOP and enjoy it. Appreciate it. Revel in it a little bit. As hard as that can be with impostor syndrome being a real and vicious reality, it is important to acknowledge that your dream happened and that YOU were the one that made it happen.
So, that’s where I am folks. Navigating this new space. Pushing myself to figure out how I feel and want I want to do next. And, of course, pushing myself to keep writing. Because ultimately, that’s what it’s actually all about.
Thanks as always for following along with me. I do have a few events coming up that I’m excited about, so check those out. And if you do buy the book, let me know. And thank you.
I am pleased to announce that three local bookstores are already stocking and selling The Cube! Yay!
Please support local, independent bookstores and visit The Book Cellar (Lincoln Square), Women & Children First (Andersonville), or The Book Bin (Northbrook) and purchase your copy today!
Indie Bookstore Incentive
If you purchase from one of these indie bookstores (or any of your local indie bookstores) and send me proof of purchase (a receipt or a photo of the book in the store would be awesome… a photo of YOU with the book in the store is THE BEST) I will not only send you the bonus content prologue, I will ALSO send you the alternate ending!
Book Clubs Too!
I’m also really excited to say I’ve been invited to talk at my first book club!
Time to Party!
Where else is the book available?
You can purchase The Cube in paperback and eBook via most online bookstores, including:
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Thank you all for your continued support. These past two weeks have been a roller coaster and I am so excited you are all along for the ride.